we were online, talking,.
but i did most of the talking, and i shared to him how i felt about my left wing. he may be concern, but may NOT be concerned. i dont know. i cant feel that he is. he even told me to go back to sleep. but didnt he saw it? i just wanted to talk to him. coz i know he can eventually subside some pain in it.
i could also sense that he isnt in the mood chatting with me. he was just in few words, left with nothing to say. and i hate it. i feel so stupid.
i feel like he doesnt care again!
i feel like he was just disturbed by me.
namuyboi pa! who told him to wait me that early? did i?? never! and what was he doing while i wasnt still on? was he busy chatting with other girls?? WHO KNOWS!?
IT BREAKS MY HEART!
he told me he was just concerned thats why he let me go back to sleep.
<now, my left part really hurts, like there's lightning. its so painful to move my body now. i cant breath normally. please, i hope whatever happens to me, they would read this.>
i know he was concerned, of course, im his girlfriend. but it just seems like he was doing some other things that time, and i feel so useless!
im so useless again! x[[
i cant let myself cry right now, coz my chest and left wing really hurts like thunder and lightning. i cant be even worse.
all i need was his care and concern.
that even though i feel bad to him, he'd make me feel at least, at ease most esp that my left wing hurts.
all i needed was his attention and enthusiasm.
<now it stroke again! the bolt of lightning and thunder in my chest>
yes, he lack enthusiasm..
i needed that from him.
i need him!
how could he afford to just go away from me?
how could he just say that?
how could he remain calm when his girlfriend is really in need of him?
how could he be so emotionless?
and how was he able to afford of avoiding me?
am i really the one he loves???
am i really the only ONE??
it hurts. my chest and inside the chest. really.
ghapon pne ngsakit.
