life is worth living for...

missing YOU too (my reply)

2011-12-04T19:45:00.001-08:00

late at night my eyes wide open
at the dark ceiling blankly starin'

hugging my pillow doesn't seem to complete me
why does my mind and soul so empty?

one thing for sure is lacking
it's you who i am really missing

miles for distance, and time may count
but what i feel can't be measured by amount

no, not in heaven and earth will i forget
even the day of the first time we met

please with no lies you wait
trust me indeed and have faith

when would i come back, no clue
but soon i will, that's true

i ask courage and patience of you
coz im dying of missing you too...

missing YOU x(

2011-12-04T19:32:00.000-08:00

I cant help myself missing you,
It's like dreaming that'll never come true

I hope that you miss me too,
And wont forget me and said "who you?"

If you're not missing me too,
I'll still wait until forver is through.

Will you ever come back to me?
coz that's what i really want it to be.

You'll hug me tight, kiss me gently
And hold my hands fit and perfectly

If i could only whisper in your ear
And said "i wish you were here

"I'll wait you here
I miss you Leahr..

---a poem for me made by Jem Brix Bacalso, my love <3 on december 4th 2011

click here for the link :]

dreadful

2011-11-22T11:33:00.001-08:00

i wanna wake up no more

if you're not to see me.

i wanna stand up no more

if you're not to guide me.

i wait for you so patiently,

but you don't have a heart of trust.

i love you so truthfully,

but you ignored me like dust.

the sun has not risen,

colors fade away

countless tears have fallen,

loving in vain day by day.

i don't wanna cry any longer

yet i've been so weak.

can't be any stronger

your presence is what i seek.

by no seasons,

they call me crazy or sane.

of all the reasons,

for love is one to blame.

my days have been nights.

i'm as worse as dead

leaving me means no light,

might as well kill me instead.

History May Never Repeat Itself

2011-02-11T22:39:00.000-08:00

i knew something which from the start is true
as wide as the sky is blue.
even before i was set to exist,
then i remember a Romeo and Juliet scene i can't resist:

a place "for which we call a rose"
where birds flock for a pose.
'til the horizons meet
and the drums starts for the beat.

beyond the steep, rocky mountains
starts the supreme sovereigns
a pure ancient treasure
under earth is protected for future.

a land so innocent and promising
had long gone with multiple wars and invading.
the obstacle race i called
first chained with Spaniards' hand so cold.

next in line, as the puppet of Japanese.
warm and moist stink the breeze.
finally, the Americans arrived
offered education, so the we survived.

decades of chaos and bloodshed
numerous dead, ceased and fled.
despite doomed, heroes and heroins born
there grew hope and faith that once was torn.

a small piece of vast summit
that those aliens encroach more than the limit.
hungry for power!
hiding inside their metal masks and soldier.

and as a single ray of sunlight appeared,
traveling fast for new days neared
way back from disastrous catastrophe
bring the cries and woes of our ancestry.

bearing weapons may be crucial
for they fought not only for survival.
revolution may seem a vengeance
just to raise the flag of independence.

now that new age has come
i rise form bed, i see the sun
on promised land i stare
no lives again to spare.

5 Compliments Every Woman Loves To Hear

2009-08-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

Words of appreciation spoken directly to your romantic partner go far in paving the way to a happy, healthy relationship. What is sometimes too easily forgotten: disagreements among couples (from trifling to serious) can nearly always be overcome with a few words of gratitude from a partner (a.k.a., a healthy dose of authentic compliments). But it takes more than a "Hey Baby, you're hot" to really win points with your partner here. These are the top five compliments every woman loves to hear. If you can't remember the words verbatim, remember the key principles: appreciation, support and acceptance. This is the triage to a strong, lasting and powerful romantic endeavor

1.You're Irreplaceable. This is a surefire way to light up your partner’s eyes. Saying these words (with full eye contact, of course) lets the special one in your life know that you know who she is as a person and that you value her as a unique individual. Why is this so effective? Think about when you break up with someone and part ways. One of the worst ramifications of the break-up is finding out, via Facebook update or chattering among friends, that you've been replaced by someone new. On the flip side, hearing from your current partner that you're valued for more than what you look like scores big, meaningful points.

2. You bring light to my life. Yes, we know this sounds like a bit much. But bear with us and let us make one point: relationships can go off course when one or both partners takes for granted the contributions the other makes to their lives. Saying this shows that a man understands and remembers that a women chooses to be with her man and opts to give her energy and time to him. Showing he appreciates that she shares her life with him is symphonic to a woman's ears. If the word light is a tad too over-the-top for you try replacing it with happiness, joy, sunshine—whichever word you can say with genuine meaning.

3. You are perfect just the way that you are. This one takes the gold star award for ability to make a woman’s day, week, month or even year (if, that is, whenever she gets miffed at you for something small she recalls you saying this to her). Ingrid Michaelson sang it best with her lyrics to the song "The Way that I Am." If you really want to make your partner's day, we suggest e-mailing this song or youtube video to the woman you love. Deep, lasting love is unconditional. Showing that you comprehend and embrace this idea will touch your partner way more than superficial comments such as, "Your earrings are cute."

4. I love your (fill in the blank: bright eyes, cute toes, toned arms, sleek legs, silky hair). We did not mean to give the impression above that we women do not like to hear you notice when we put extra effort into looking foxy for our man. But what’s key here is that what you say is genuine. Don’t just pick any random feature. Think about it. What is your partner’s best physical attribute and why do you like it? Telling your partner this will show her you pay attention to details, and to her.

5. I am so proud of you. A big deal-breaker in any relationship can be supporting one another’s life goals or not. Paying attention to your partner’s current goals she is working hard to achieve endear her to you for life. Whether it is paying off her credit card debt, completing a class, putting in extra hours to earn a promotion or even trying to better balance her life, show your loving support for your women. Her heart will melt then and every time thereafter she remembers when you supported along the way to making things happen and brushing off when the chips are down.

2009-05-15T03:19:00.000-07:00

Quotes...

"Love isn't just sweet words."

"Love can't foretell the future."

"Pain is just weakness leaving the body."

"Love comes in different shapes depending on the person."

"Too much beauty can be hazardous to your health."

our alma mater song

2009-05-11T01:36:00.000-07:00

in the midst of hills and valleys
here we come to hone our skills
in the fields of art and music
in our poetry, drama, and dance

in the heart of mother nature
here we praise the Lord above
through the years of our studies
we train the talents and the gifts we have

oh, mandaue city school for the arts!
to you we come to build our shape
our hearts and minds
as the hope of our nation's future

to you we give our thanks
oh, alma mater
and to out teachers and our mentors dear
as we go forth to each our dreams and visions
to try to be the best that we can be

oh mandaue city school for the arts!
we come to you with hope and we trust in you
that through you we will reach our goals!
that through you we will reach our goals!

biglaan

2009-04-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

naalala ko pa ang ating kahapon
nagkukwentuhan pa tuwing dapit-hapon
di ko malimutan ang ating lambingan
sa tuwing akoy iyong hinahalikan

pero ngayon ikay biglang lumisan
o sinta, akoy labis na nasaktan
hindi ko matanggap ang iyong paglisan
hindi mo man lamang ako pinagsabihan.

ano ba ang nagawa kong hindi mo gusto?
oh, bakit parang bulang biglang naglaho?
gusto ko sanay tayoy magpakailanman
pero bakit ba ikay biglang lumisan?

ngayon akoy labis na nagdudurusa
pilit binabalikan ang ala-ala
ngunit ngayon ako ay may sasabihin
adios! ngunit ikay iibigin pa rin...

~~~by venz lester campugan, my classmate

ulila sa pagmamahal

2009-04-09T05:41:00.000-07:00

nang akoy maliit pa,
magandang buhay ang aking natamasa.
marangya ang pamumuhay,
ang mundi koy puno ng kulay

biglang dumating ang unos
buhay koy biglang naging kalunos-lunos.
mahal kong mga magulang,
nasaan ba kayo?

pilit na winawaksi saking isipan,
kalungkutan na aking nararamdaman.
kaunting poot at galit,
inaalis na lamang sa isang awit.

ngunit kahit ganun pa man,
palagi kong tinatandaan,
kayoy aking mga magulang,
ngayon at magpakailanman.

~~~by cathryn camacho, my classmate

my last word to you

2009-04-01T06:29:00.000-07:00

before my life was nothing
i was lonely with no one beside me
but then you came
held my arms and let me stand
you make me happy in the way you know
but time runs out
and slowly you say

pre-chorus:
may our friendship last
as we go our way
for the tests that we should get through
and i say, may last words
oh, farewell to you my friend

chorus:
everywhere i'll bring with me the joy you've given my life
anywhere i choose to live
the smile you gave keep miles
i won't forget, the time that we spent
but now i should say goodbye

and now the time has come
when we part our paths we're from
to face tomorrow
that waits for us to embrace
hope we'll never forget
the times we shared
the laughter and tears
the moments they bring

(repeat pre-chorus and chorus)

bridge:
remember to cherish this day
for i'll say my last goodbye
to you my friends, farewell...

chorus:
everywhere i'll bring with me
the joy you've given my life
anywhere i choose to live
the smile you gave keep miles
i won't forget, the time that we spent
but now i should say...

everywhere i'll bring with me
the joy you've given my life
anywhere i choose to live
the smile you gave keep miles i
won't forget, the time that we spent
though it hurts to say...
goodbye...
goodbye...

~this was our graduation song in high school

the newly built friendship...

2009-03-15T00:09:00.000-07:00

Donna, Daryl, James, Venz, Leah

the friendship that was not intentionally built and formed...

in an unexpected place and time...

in an unexpected situation.

among the five persons never expected to have gone this far...

five persons with different attitudes,

besides the difference of genders...

different principles and different perspectives..

yet, they were bound to have a connection...

the bond was getting tighter...

the relations getting closer... consequences are tougher...

and within the range of closeness...

a new line of connection was formed...

different from what it used to be...

it was somewhat like there was a change in temperature...

though the friendship was still strong...

surely there will come a time...

that one realizes something rather than the way it used to be..

that one has to sacrifice and one has to give up something...

in order to protect and preserve the newly built friendship...

hopes to last...

and tattoes on the hearts...

that proves to all that there would be no less than any triangles

that could smash down the -ship!!!

called FRIENDSHIP!!

---February 25 2009

event:fashion walk(speech)

2009-02-23T03:42:00.001-08:00

dli gayud nato isalikway ang importansya sa pagsustinar sa atong kultura ug palibot,
kay ang pagkinabuhi uban ang iyang kaanindot usa na ka maayong tikang.
isip miyembro sa tribu mailubon, gropo sa mga pasensyoso ug masinabtanon, nagatoo ako nga kitang tanan banggiitan sa atong kaugalingong gidangtanan...

in english:

the importance of preserving our culture and nature is never to be abandoned,
for living with its beauty is a virtue which is a supplement to one's peacefulness and tranquility.
as the ambassador of tribu mailubon, the patient and u8nderstanding people,
i believe we are the masters or our own adversities...

and that's it!
i hope it's good enough to understand and i hope it is properly translated by my classmate...
honestly, im the one who made the english version...
hehehe..
very hard to translate,eh?

well...
just sharing...

tragedy

2009-02-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

loving and protecting each other
know no perils at all
spent each time together
nobody could let us fall

no one could even tell
that our dear hearts beats the same
how ourselves intimately fell
it's love and no one to blame

but there was a twist of fate
and sudden death laid ahead
how come you kept it and isolate
and no word you ever said?

we kept the promise of forever
now that you're gone
i cry as i remember
the vow we kept,"you are the one"

i thought you'll never leave me?
all you left was a scar
yet still bleeding so painfully
knowing you're damn so far

but what can i do?
you were taken away early from me
because heaven deserves you
and that's the way He wanted to be

now i have decided.
to stop all these troubles and pain,
something must be ended
and that's to cut off my vein

today is february...

2009-02-09T04:11:00.000-08:00

and i dont know why im blogging now...

maybe its because of this very unexplainable happenings of my life...

cant even make a single poem or two though February is a so-called "Love Month"...

but i dont believe it. since i entered high school,i never appreciated the Valentines day or month and what it means... i never cared at all...

for me,this is just an ordinary day...

14?
whats with it??
just a day of the incomplete days of February...

my friends often find this holiday a very special one.. dating,wandering,movies, whatsoever... but why is it really a big deal for them?? i dont really get their point...

bah...
nevermind...
i really dont care at all...

whats destined to happen should happen...

moon

2009-01-16T02:25:00.000-08:00

you are the brightest light
of my darkest night
the shimmering object of my sight
wish you were here to hug me tight

feel the cool breeze of the air
covered by darkness so fair
which slowly brushes my gentle hair
floating 'til i reach the mare

the compass of my wandering path
the formula of my problems in math
you guide me wherever i go
oh, please every night you show

from afar hoping you could feel my presence
blankly staring at the wide-range non-sense
for i am alone with the deafening silence
i feel no nightmare oh so cleanse

please always light my way
woeful i cannot see you by day
and tomorrow night you wont be around
i shall see you sometime that's to be bound

i give up

2009-01-02T04:01:00.000-08:00

many years have passed
many problems i cast
thought this is just part of growing up
so i don't have to give up

i entered a new chapter in life
where hearts are as delicate as a knife
hearts immediately wounded
hearts not easily mended

in this stage i felt curiousity
expecting whether love is a fantasy or a reality
i never anticipated
that things happen so unexpected

i play a game
thought it would be just the same
but i was struck
oh,my! would this be my luck?

i played with his feelings
and i enjoyed these things
for i knew he was sincere to me
and in his face i can see

in the middle of this play
i realized something i should say
"this is no more the same way
and i think i couldn't stay"

if love is true
why couldn't i get through?
i should let him go
for i have hurt him so

i could stand it no more
as he knock on my door
seeing innocence in his eye
the more i should say goodbye

but how could i set him free
if i myself is guilty
real love is what i already feel
what about the scar that needs to heal?

i know i should end this
expecting things i would miss
some things may end and drop
for it's time to give this up...

tired of waiting

2008-12-16T05:48:00.000-08:00

mesmerized by someone nearby,
hopeless at first and shy.
however,it was different
not long after,i knew
what he meant.

he vowed for me
and promised love so vast
oh,yes! i merry for
the courage at last!

i thought it would be the start
of the happy-ever-after-part
wishing that evening would extend
how much more if it wouldn't end?

the second chance
was yet given,
but where is the fortitude
again hidden?

i thought the vow was pure?
i thought the feelings were sure?

he never attempted to unveil
the love he said he had
now i doubt if eh was real
or gone mad.

i sobbed for i thought
he was just lying.
whenever someone asks
he kept denying.

in my mind,i kept asking,
"what is happening?"
with this unexplainable.
plus people keep on mutilating...

i finally come to realize
how foolish i am
to be in love with someone
oh! damn!

what's the use of all those things,
if he just let me wait
and keep on hoping?

hoping and waiting for nothing...

so sick of loving...

so tired of waiting...

when i met you

2008-12-13T05:33:00.000-08:00

i never planned of
feeling any affection for you
i never planned of attracting
to someone the way i do

but the world turned upside down
when i met you
all things around me changed
like dawn to morning dew

happiness then filled
my whole entity
like a feeling of being uplift
and free from worry

all my days will be
happy and gay
if i see your face
before i start my stressful day

i will never forget
the day we met
while we watch the sea
as the sun set

and i want you to know
that i will never forget
the days and months
since the first time we met

sa aking kaibigang nawalay

2008-12-10T05:52:00.000-08:00

matagal na nung tayo'y huling nagkita
inaasam kong ikaw ay makasama
ang iyong halakhak ay magandang mukha
kahit saan man ikaw ay nakikita

ilang mga taon na rin ang lumipas
mga ala-ala'y nag-iwan ng mga bakas
naalala ko pa nung ika'y umiyak
'sandaang kamag-aral ang humalakhak

talagang nakakatuwa mang isipin,
ngunit meron akong di maamin-amin
ako ngayo'y malungkot at nag-iisa
ako'y naghahanap ng iyong presensya.

mis ko na ang ating mga pagdadamayan,
kalungkutan at mga pag-aawayan.
lalong lalo na ang ating mga tawanan,
biruan,kantsawan, at pag-iingayan.

hindi ko tuloy lubos maisip
na ako ay para lamang nakaidlip
tila napaikli ng panahong iyon
na dagli lang natapos at itinapon

nais ko lamang iparating sa iyo
na ang tulang ito ay iaalay ko
sa taong matagal nang nawala sa 'kin
ngunit, ibublong na lang sa hangin..

until i get over you

2008-12-09T04:15:00.000-08:00

woke up today thinking of you
another night that i made my way through
so many dreams still left in my mind
but they can never come true

i press rewind and remember when
i close my eyes and i'm with you again
but in the end i can still feel the pain
everytime i hear your name

the sun won't shine since you went away
seems like the rain's falling everyday
there's just one heart,where there once was two
but that's the way it's gotta be,
until i get over you...

walked through the park in the evening air
i heard a voice and i thought you were there
i run away but i just can't escape
memories of you everywhere.

they say that time will dry the tears
but true love burns for a thousand years
give my tomorrows for one yesterday
just to know that i could have you here.

when will this river of tears stop falling?
where can i run so i won't feel alone?
can't walk away when the pain keeps calling
i've just gotta take it from here on my own
but it's so hard to let go...

forbidden love

2008-12-09T03:25:00.000-08:00

once i fell in love
with a girl from above
she fell from heaven to earth
i saw her twelve years from birth

i help her get up
i smiled with my thumbs up
i told her that it's okay
and she asked can she stay

since then we bacame friends
but i felt something different
i felt in love with her
but we wer noy meant together

when i was sixteen
chaos can be seen
we were kept away
but our love will stay

i went to oak tree
thinking she should be free
at suprise she came
smiling and calling my name

she only got 'til midnight
we were loosing the fight
i hug her very tight
i can't let to loose her sight

i told her "i love you"
she said "i love you too"
i desperately hug her
in her forehead i kiss her

with her tears slowly fade
all i can do is bade
we hugged and said good-bye
hoping again to say "hi"

we promised that we will find
and love each other
if love can wait
and eternity will wait

end of me

2008-12-09T03:00:00.000-08:00

beside the sea,the sun said good-bye

i waited for you 'til i've given a sign

i wondered a question of what you are gonna say

"will i be happy?, or the end of me?"

sure i knew merrier my heart will be

for tomorrow you'll be marrying me

excited i am to see the celebration

of two hearts joined in one strong relation.

my heart beats fast whenever i see you

oh! what shall you say..is it "i love you?"

but the sadness in your face cut my happiness

the beating of my heart was replaced with disgrace

then you came to me and bent your head

wrapped me in your arms, you missed me,i bet!

but again your eyes are telling me the other way

for your tears were flood falling while you say...

"im happy and glad to be with you,

but darling forgive me,forgive me i really do.

the love that we used to share was never been true

and the woman i wanna be with was never been you..."

my world stopped with tears falling from my eyes

my heart broke into pieces, your love's feel of disguise

and i'll never forget the place where i hardly cried

when you returned our wedding ring and kissed me

good-bye...

tiresome lying

2008-12-08T06:17:00.000-08:00

questions in my mind kept asking,

"what is happening?"

an unexplainable feeling,

an answer i kept on searching

my heart and soul sinking

and the time is fastly running

i look around colors fading

teardrops started falling...

would someone cease the longing

and stop me from breaking?

or would this be the ending

of the tiresome lying..?